I know that it might seem a little ironic to you, to hear me say that I think I’m overcoming my block . I mean, it’s been a whole week since my last post which was an excuse for a post, it was about the Block, so how do I go from that to overcoming? …
Well, I’m not about to tell you that it’s over, or that it’s been easy or any other crap like that, but what I’m going to say is that I’m trying – really hard- and I think that it’s working. First off, it might interest you that the reason I haven’t posted anything these past few days isn’t just my block, but I’ve also been super busy, and if you’re thinking that I could have made time to write then I’ll take it you have no idea what it is to prepare for your brother’s wedding – yeah, you read right, my brother got married on Sat, I’ll make sure to tell you all about it in my next post (in sha Allah).
So what ever possessed me into believing that I was – am – overcoming my block?
Well, let me see… This post, the one I wrote down but didn’t publish yet, and the ton of others that I intend to write.
How did I do it? the overcoming thing!
Simple, I just treated it like every other problem I’ve had, and with me there’s no moving on or getting over anything until I had understood the why of it, it’s never enough that it’s over, or that someone’s sorry, or that it won’t happen again, nothing can take the ‘why’s place – except of course there is no why because even I know that sometimes some things just happen, and I make peace with it- but lucky enough, this isn’t one of those times.
First thing you should know is that I’m a little lazy – but you probably already figured out that much with the way things have been around here – anyway, I’m lazy, but I also had my hopes sorta crushed – no one promised me anything or something like that, I just thought – hoped – that by now, I would have a different phone (my phone’s okay, just not what I wanted) and the really cool shinny thing that makes blogging a whole lot easier, I think they’re called laptops, yeah I thought I would own one of those by now – yes yes I’m twenty something, a student (MSc. Level), a blogger and I don’t – have never- own a laptop. I know I know, your jaw’s dropping and you just can’t believe it, can’t imagine how I’ve managed and stuffs like that, but hear this: I didn’t know how weird it was until I told some of my colleagues a few weeks ago, so no not owning a laptop didn’t really cause the block – I’m not really the complaining type, more of the make do with what you have type- it’s just that I held my hopes up on thoughts of it, telling myself that I’ll do better once I have it and stuffs like that, but it didn’t come and I just couldn’t figure how to go on blogging, typing without it and so I just kept everything at a stand still waiting without realizing that’s what I was doing.
I guess you’ve figured that I finally figured that it didn’t make any sense at all, since I have managed for quite a while – not too great, but managed still, I started this blog on my phone, I’ve been running it from my phone, and it’s been going great. While I would love to own a laptop and type with more ease and everything, I have realized that it’s really stupid to let the thoughts of what I want ruin what I already have. When you put yourself in a place where you either move on or you’re really stupid I guess you can hear your brain screaming! – I’m not stupid. And that was just what happened.
So is it over now? Am I going to write a post regularly here on?
No, it not over yet, I did say that I was overcoming, but I believe that I will get there. And about posting regularly, well we did take care of the psychological issue but no one said anything about the lazy part, so well, I guess we’ll see…
I think now’s the part where I say thank you to everyone who had anything to do with it – I bet you thought I would forget;) – thanks guys
Peace be with you…